I didn’t get to say good-bye

Last night I made the mistake of watching Marley and Me. Excellent movie, but not something I really needed to watch, at least not this time in my life lol. I spend the last half of the movie trying to keep the girls from seeing me crying. Thankfully they were watching Monsters vs Aliens in their bedroom most of that time.

I did come to a realization of whey losing Diamond is so difficult for me though, I didn’t get to say good bye. I didn’t get to tell her I love her. Shea said it would have torn me up, but I’m not sure this is any better. I miss my puppy. The only other dog’s passing that hit me this hard was when Gypsy left us. I was 14 years old and I literally grew up with her from the time my parents brought me home from the hosiptal till then. She was a puppy when I was a baby. It was difficult for me.

I miss all our other dogs, but these two are the hardest ones.

I want another dog just not sure when we will get one. We have alot of research and alot of money we have to save up just to get a puppy. Right now we have alot of bills to get through so it’s not top of the list. So many things to do before that.