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I didn’t get to say good-bye

Monday, October 19th, 2009

Last night I made the mistake of watching Marley and Me. Excellent movie, but not something I really needed to watch, at least not this time in my life lol. I spend the last half of the movie trying to keep the girls from seeing me crying. Thankfully they were watching Monsters vs Aliens in their bedroom most of that time.

I did come to a realization of whey losing Diamond is so difficult for me though, I didn’t get to say good bye. I didn’t get to tell her I love her. Shea said it would have torn me up, but I’m not sure this is any better. I miss my puppy. The only other dog’s passing that hit me this hard was when Gypsy left us. I was 14 years old and I literally grew up with her from the time my parents brought me home from the hosiptal till then. She was a puppy when I was a baby. It was difficult for me.

I miss all our other dogs, but these two are the hardest ones.

I want another dog just not sure when we will get one. We have alot of research and alot of money we have to save up just to get a puppy. Right now we have alot of bills to get through so it’s not top of the list. So many things to do before that.

Potty Training

Monday, October 5th, 2009

I think it finally clicked with Kathleen!

We still have accidents but for the past week, more often than not Kathleen goes in the potty no matter what. We still go through a ton of panties cause she tends to take then off each bathroom trip, but that’s something we can work on later. It’s just become habit AND she also tends to wait till the last minute and wets them a little bit. But we are doing wonderfully well with the potty and I’m so happy.

I would really like to give her a big reward for that, but what I want to do I don’t want to think is all hers. I am really longing for a puppy. Not that it can’t wait cause it’s going to have to until we can afford to pay the bills for the beginning vet bills and the puppy fees and all. I’m thinking we’ll probably get one around Christmas/Tax time, but we’ll see.

We still have many conversations with Kathleen about Diamond. None seem to be overly sad. Yes, she misses her but its more along the lines of I miss Diamond, but she’s up in the sky. We talk alot about the stars and Diamond. I know she’ll have to deal with death sometime, someday, but at the tender of 3 I don’t think is the proper time to do that.

Sammi hasn’t cared one way or the other about Diamond. I don’t think she really understood her not coming home, but she doesn’t even mention her when she sees pictures, just says dog and barks lol. No name associated with her so I guess that’s a good transition for her.

I’ve discussed a puppy with Kathleen and asked her if she wanted to help with the puppy, feed it and teach it to go potty outside and stuff, she seems to be for it, so we’ll see. I feel for the puppy cause it’s going to get overloved I’m sure.

I think we both agree that a black lab might be our next best bet, but we’ll see.

Labor Day & Pets

Tuesday, September 8th, 2009

I can’t say how much I miss being home when family gathering holiday’s roll around. My day was uneventful, I didn’t even plan to barbaque. Not that my grill would work if I wanted to anyway. I haven’t grilled all summer long thanks to not having the money to refill the gas tank for the grill.

I’m having a hard time with missing Diamond. I try not to let the girls see how much it hurts. I’m not worrying about doing something wrong with her, I just miss her to death. Shea doesn’t want another one yet. And I understand why. We can’t afford a puppy right now anyway. To many added expenses.

I have suggested fish to him but he and I both agree that it’s difficult finding a place with the girls in their I must get into everything stage. I suggested a cat. My initial thought was that it would be cheaper than a dog but they too need licensing and vet visits after the initial kitten stage. The biggest thing there though is it might help with the mice population in the winter time. Dunno how they do it but every winter we get little critters in our attic and house, at least since Katrina anyway I don’t recall having them before then.

I’m not sure if we’ll have a pet anytime soon. Maybe once at the beginning of next year after a tax refund comes in. I did get one bit of news from Shea that in March if they strike, he plans to go to work through the strike. That was awesome news as we really couldn’t afford it other wise. And it’ll leave our tax refund for things that are more important like getting me a new computer, hopefully Windows 7 will be available I really don’t want to have to upgrade and/or get Vista at all lol, but we’ll see. I’d love to get a MAC but don’t think that will happen. Besides I couldn’t play WoW on it, don’t think WoW installs on the MAC, much less all my design software. We’ll see.

Kitchen Table

Sunday, July 26th, 2009

Since Shea and I have been together we have never owned a kitchen/dinning room table, ever. That’s 9 years of eating wherever. With Diamond gone, we now have a dilemma. The girls have become overly use to the dog cleaning up after them. Which I didn’t mind so much until Diamond stopped eating the cheerios that kept making it to the floor. I don’t blame her for not eating them as I’m sure it got real old real fast. But now with out our living vaccuum, we have a problem. The girls still throw their food on the floor.

So since getting another dog is pretty much out of the question at this moment, we bought a kitchen table. We’ve been using it as much as we possibly can and the girls are adapting well to it. I think the stint at my parents house with a family dinner helped out with that. Kathleen is pretty much a jabber jaw at the table, but it’s really nice to be a family even is Sammi isn’t quite so ready to sit down and eat with us. But she’s going through a phase anyway with her eating habits.

The table is in the middle of our living room right near the front door, it’s the only place we can really put it. It’s going to make cleaning a hassle since I use to push all the toys and stuff into that area, but hopefully that once I get things manageable after having been sick a week things will be better in both my kitchen and in my living room. Less food on the floor = less mess to clean up. And the more likely I won’t have to hunt anything more than sippie cups that have migrated around the house.

Vacation Rundown

Wednesday, July 22nd, 2009

We are back from our vacation. It was alot of fun to be home for a while. It was great to not have to worry about anything as well. I’ll start at the beginning.

We left at 8pm July 1 after Shea took half a day and slept what he could until about 6 or 7pm. The girls were thrilled with the DVD player and I don’t really remember what they watched to start with, my best guess is Phineas and Ferb or Cars. We drove through the night and got to Roanoke, VA at around noon, where we were able to check in. We crashed and rested until about 6pm when we started to settle in for bed.

Samantha had a horrible night, she wouldn’t go to sleep so it in turn kept us all awake until about 10pm when the sun was finally down. Kathleen ended up sleeping on the floor, which is pretty typical of my eldest daughter. We got up an moving and were on our way north around 6am. We reached my parents empty house about 6pm after stopping at Pizza Hut to eat.

I took the girls over to Grams house to tell her we were here after I unlocked the front door with my house key. She was suppose to let us in but I got in with my key. Shea started putting everything in the house. We went over to Uncle Albs & Aunt Barb house so they could introduce us to Ebony and Mica – my parents dogs. They came over about half hour after we arrived. Ebony took to everyone real well and Mica was overly shy. But the next morning after we woke up the dogs were more than happy we were there with them, even Mica was all waggles now.

We spent the fourth of July down to my Aunt Sylv’s house. It was too cold for the girls (and me) to go swimming but I think everyone had a good time. My parents came down there when they got home and the girls ran and practically jumped into their arms. Everyone was really excited to see each other!

The following day was Sunday, which me and the girls (and Mom) spent the day at Grams house playing May I. Or that was the plan, but we instead moved the card game to my parents house so that the girls would be more comfortable. That evening we went to Walmart. Why you ask? Well we realized after coming up from the heat that it was a bit too cold in the morning. I had only brought the girls one pair of socks each and Shea didn’t pack any pants, so we went and picked up those few things and a few additional groceries we needed for the next few days. Mom and Aunt Sylv helped plan the following weekends menu plan as Gram was having lots of company up. I cooked two of those days for the whole family and cooked dinner for the immediate family the rest of the time except those days we ate at Grams house during part of our vacation.

On Wednesday my Brother and his girlfriend Stacey showed up after having been to Michigan where Stacey’s family lives. We hung out talked and got to meet Maggie, their dog.

At this point things started getting blurred. We ate dinner on, my dad made omelets for breakfast. We ventured down to Aunt Sylv’s house for an hour or so for the girls to go swimming. While the water was FREEZING the girls both had a blast.

Kathleen started out in her life vest but it kept filipping her on her back (it’s suppose to do that) we put her in a tube and she went all over the pool. It took Samantha a bit but she did eventually get in as long as I held on to her at all times.

The next day Mig made breakfast with love. He shredded his potatoes by hand using a knife to cut each piece up. To accompany his hash browns he made french toast and sausage. We went down to Jenn’s house to see the chickens and goats (and jump on the trampoline). The girls enjoyed both parts. Kathleen got a goat to eat from her hand and petted a chicken. Samantha liked the dirt in the goat pen, thankfully the goats don’t relieve themselves in that particular area. Mom’s camera crapped out there so we don’t have a lot of pics as Mom would have liked.

I’m probably confusing days so chronology may be off but the events are still sound lol.

Thrusday night we waited for Aunt Eileen and Uncle Al to show up and we all went over for a little visit then came back to relax.

Friday night was “Family Night”. Now you ask what this might mean if you don’t know the Talbot Family. Basically it’s when all of Grams children, and their children and their children get together at Gram’s dinky little trailer. This is generally only seen at holidays like Thanksgiving, Christmas and Easter. But when Aunt Eileen or Uncle Jim come down (or any of the other out of state family come in to stay) they all get together. Usually it’s 40+ people, but be cause so many people showed up it was more like 50+ people. Gram ordered 10 pizza’s and there was only about 1 pie left over in total. I’m not sure what-else made it with dinner, tossed salad perhaps but pizza was the main dish. All in all it was good to see everyone. I got to meet some “family” I have only heard about and not really met, and Shea got to meet more too I think.

Saturday we went to Cooperstown to play Minature Golf. Dad won. (He was score keeper – and he’s a golfer.) Kathleen had fun hitting the ball. Samantha not so much, she really didn’t enjoy herself much except for playing in the dirt/rocks. That night I made spaghetti and meatballs.

Sunday night Suzie and Andy (and the boys) showed up but we didn’t stay long, Samantha was already home after having had a bad time while we were playing cards with Aunt Eileen – Mig played too. Mom and Aunt Sylv were trying to take pictures of each other’s cards to “cheat”. We all had a good time.

Mig and Stacey left Monday morning and Mom and Kathleen helped the Talbot clan put in hay. Kathleen had fun despite falling into Aunt Barb’s fish pond right after I got done telling her don’t lean over like that or you’ll fall in. Like my words prompted it in she fell. Thankfully she didn’t go under as she landed on Aunt’ Barb’s lilly pad pots. She was upset, but she later told Grandpa she went swimming with the fish.

Not much really happened eventful after that. We spent a good majority of the Wednesday the 15th outside with the girls. I got a slight sunburn on my thighs and Kathleen has a great tan. We left my parents house around 8pm (after waiting for a call back from Shea’s parents to tell us what was going on with Diamond.)

We drove all night long and reached Virginia Beach, Va around 7am. We ate breakfast at Denny’s then everyone but me slept in the van while we waited for 11am check in when we were able to get into our room. We waited around for Shea and Sydney (and Gabriel) to show up.

Shea got dropped off at the hotel and while we waited for Sydney and the baby to show up we went swimming. The girls pretty much played on the steps and Kathleen tried to go under water which scares me to death now. I am avoiding baths with her for the time being hoping the desire to swim under water fades just a little. Samantha got into the water of her own accord, she even got in up to her neck of her own violation.

Sydney showed up with our grandson and we all chatted and took pictures and had a decent time. They left around 8pm which was good the girls were getting sleepy and they had to be up early. Shea is going to Iraq at the end of the month so he had lots of things to do these last few weeks.

We drove to Atlanta, GA and stopped there for the night. While there we picked up a nice flat rock from the motel hillside to use as Diamond’s head stone. (Side note: I’ve purchased Georgia Clay red for the base of the rock color to pain). We left around 7am and got home about 1pm give or take.

All in all it was a very good trip. I miss home, and I miss my family but I am glad to be here with my things in what we call home. We are not back to the grind stone and things are back to usual minus one family member. I do miss her so much.

I will have pictures soon, I’m missing a few yet so I don’t want to post any. You can check out other family members pics if you can’t wait that long.

It’s been a rough night

Thursday, July 16th, 2009

Yesterday was not a good day for many reasons. The biggest reason being that Diamond passed away. She’s been with Shea’s folks while we are on vacation. Late last week his mom called and told us Diamond wasn’t doing well. We chalked it up her moping around and missing us. She was fine the next day and then yesterday she was lethargic and they were in the process of taking her to the vet ER which was 2 hours away as it was after hours. At around 8pm EST his dad called and told us that she didn’t make it.

So needless to say I’ve been having a very bad night – on top of leaving my parents house I have to deal with the death of my beloved pet. And so many things run through my mind that might have happened but we will really never know what happened.

We left my parents about 8pm last night and drove through the night and got to Virginia Beach at about 7am. So right now we are sitting in the parking lot of the motel we are staying in cause we can’t check in for another 2 hours at least – possibly 3. It sucks. Thankfully the girls have the dvd player and the free wifi reaches out to the van so I can at least do something – even if it’s depressing.

I cryied several times last night before I got a few winks of shut eye. I can’t help it Diamond was such a part of our lives. Shea’s parents are going to bury her in their yard somewhere I can easily get to so I can put a headstone or something. I know I will at least visit it. My biggest fear is that Diamond thought we’d abandoned her and thought we didn’t love her anymore. I feel horrible about things for my inlaws. They had to deal with it all while we were away.

The only plus side is that the girls didn’t see her go down hill. But what do you tell a 3 year old about the loss of her beloved pet? We are at a loss of words. I really don’t know what to tell her when she asks where Diamond is. I’m so sorry we lost her like this and its killing me.

We probably won’t be getting another pet for a while. Maybe we can get fish, maybe. But then again we probably won’t do that either. We’ll see. I have too much to think about now that new pets are far from my mind.

As a side note we had a great vacation, I’ll post more about that later, right now got a few other things to do.

Diamond

Wednesday, August 6th, 2008

I have seen a remarkable improvement in Diamond in both appearance and attitude. Diamond actually comes out of the room now, and will play with the girls for a few miniutes. She tires of them quickly still and retreats to the safety of our room but she is doing much better.

I made a connection yesterday that may be why Diamond has lost so much weight and it might not be anything wrong with her other than what she does or doesn’t eat. Diamond has eaten beniful for most of her life and when we switched I think it wasn’t providing the same nutrients she needed or she just wasn’t plain eating it well enough. I’ve been adding half a can of canned dog food to her dry food this past week and both Shea and I can see an improvement in her weight and look of her. So instead of going to the straight dry food but more expensive dog food I’m going to stick with the purina brand that is cheaper and add in half a can of canned dogfood mixed in. Price wise it comes out a little better or around the same, but it also insures she eats most of her food when I give it to her instead of it sitting around all day for the girls to play in thus making my kitchen a bigger disaster area.

I’m going to give Diamond another week or two on this new diet to see if she bulks back up and if she does then I won’t buy the dewormer but if we still see an issue I probably will. I think I have found one that I don’t need an Rx for and is relatively easy to give to her.

Doggie Troubles

Thursday, September 28th, 2006

Diamond is becoming a real pain in the butt. Since Kathleen’s been here Diamond’s listening skills have dropped dramatically. Talk about a spoiled baby playing games to get attention, and not the good kind of attention.

The only good thing is that she mostly listens to “Go to your pen.” However, even that’s getting iffy. Today I found her eating leftovers OFF of the stove. She climbed right up and was eating as if it were hers. So today’s she’s spending a good portion of it in her pen. She’s getting worse now that Kathleen is mobile. *sighs* She must like her pen cause she’s spending alot of time in there for being bad.

The coolest thing…

Thursday, May 25th, 2006

The coolest thing just happened. Kathleen, Diamond and I were all sitting on the bed. Kathleen was watching Diamond and Diamond was being curious about the baby and wanting attention of her own. Diamond got in Kathleen’s face to sniff her over and Kathleen smiled and started talking to her. Diamond didn’t respond but she did walk way to root all over the pillows on the bed. Then she came to lay in front of us. Kathleen was watching Diamond, Diamond was making her normal I want attention sounds and Kathleen started to laugh. No one was consciously trying to make her laugh, she thought something Diamond was doing or the sounds she was making were funny. She had quite the little giggle fit for no apparent reason. I was sooooo cute!

Family Pic

Friday, February 4th, 2005

My mom is a camera happy person. She loves to take pictures of EVERYTHING. And I mean everything.

Diamond has only been to my parents house three times. The first was when we first got her, well one week after we got her we took her up to my parents house and went to six flags. The second time she didn’t fair well so she hasn’t been back since. The last time she went we couldn’t get her in the kennel on such short notice. (Shea had said we would take her and then decided a bit too late that it’d be best to put her in the kennel). Needless to say her and Smokey don’t get along so it was an interesting visit, but I think she enjoyed being there with all the people to pay attention to her lol.

Anyway, on the second trip up Mom must have been camera happy as we’ve got an awesome family pic of me, Shea and Diamond. I don’t know what she’s looking at and apparently my Dad had just cut my bangs. Short of my bangs being messed up the pic is pretty cool.

So here it is. Picture taken 5/27/02 according to the time stamp on the camera.