Okay it’s very much my fault for the girlies wanting to listen to it. I watched My So-Called Life this past week. And it brings back memories from college and one of the song’s played in the series is I wanna be sedated by the Ramones. It was also played by a band in Reality Bites – one of the movies we saw at school in a dinky little room on campus for free. Was awesome time.

So I started listening to the song and now the girls really want to hear it over and over and over again. And it must be this version on you tube.

Two days ago Kathleen went to the doctor to find out she had strep throat. Yesterday we did the same thing with Samantha. At 9am she passed out on the bed while watching TV. That’s off even for Sammi. When I went to check on her she felt warm so I called the doctor to see when we could walk in. It would have to be that after noon but we got in so no big deal.

Kathleen had an eye and ear exam at 1pm so we just stayed for a walk in appointment for Samantha. Kathleen’s ears are fine so no damage done to the ears with her extended fluid on her ears. Yay! But her eyes not so much. She passed the first test, but the one where she had to tell the nurse what letter or number she saw she couldn’t make out the letters. I don’t know if she didn’t know the name of the letter or if she was being too shy or if she really couldn’t see it. They were blurry to me when I went in to see and can see how she might have problems, but I was wearing my glasses so I know it’s possible I need an update. The nurse will call eventually after the doctor sees the results and we’ll probably get a referal to an eye doctor that deals with children. Hopefully sooner rather than later.

After Kathleen’s tests we sat down to wait. As a walk in I expected to wait forever, but we were the first ones there and early too boot, and we got called back right away. Needless to say we were home by 3ish I think. Sammi refused to let them take a swab of her throat. It ended up the nurse pinning her down and me trying to keep her hands away from her so the nurse could get the swab to test. It came back positive.

Both girlies have strep. But it’s not something I worry over that came around supper time. Sammi wouldn’t eat. She had a bought of diarehha earlier and was a lot too warm. I gave her her medicine when she crawled into my bed I knew she’d fall asleep, she’d almost fallen asleep on her desk when she sat down there. She fell asleep and was awake by 9pm – hungry. I stayed up with her and fed her and made sure she was ready to stay in her room so she didn’t wake Shea up. During those 3 hours while she napped I worried. When she woke up hungry she and was more back to herself so I didn’t worry all night long like I had anticipated.

I am doing much better today. Thanks for all the stories and encouragement, they do help. One really great thing happened on Tuesday. Kathleen’s ears had no fluid on them so that relieved much of my tension. It didn’t remove the quarter issue and I’m really not sure why I’m not a major mess.

Sammi was given chewable elax yesterday and passed a bowel yesterday and one this morning. No quarter, but for some reason I’m not panicking. Talking with a friend I think I just over worried myself and now I’m numb to it. But I have Shea and he’s grounding me so I bug him to keep checking Sam’s tummy but all seems well. Tomorrow if she poops I’ll probably be a lot better.

I’m still not sure if I’ll be completely worry free with out a chest x-ray but we’ll see. She’s doing well, she’s pooping if she keeps doing so I’ll probably ease into being okay with.

Thing is we don’t really know what she swallowed. I assume it was a quarter. She said she swallowed money. And the only money I knew she had was a Quarter and that was what Shea said that Kathleen had given her a bit earlier. I don’t really know but I’m fearful something will go wrong. I’m just not in overdrive. This is a much more manageable fear. I think it was everything just piling on me at once. Kathleen’s ears have been plaguing me for a while.

So on top of all this everyone is getting sick. I have a cough and sore throat and tons of sneezing. Sammi has a majorly runny nose, Kathleen has a cough and Shea is feeling off as well. We potentially might get snow, it’s cold enough north of us to get sleet/ice rain mix etc, but not here I don’t think. The big pink mass heading our way is well north of I-10 and we live south of that. So doubt we’ll see anything tonight/tomorrow. But Thursday they are forecasting snow…. SNOW. It has snowed all of once since we moved down here, and that was Christmas my first year here lol. So we’ll see. I’m not overly eager for snow, but I would really love to see the girls reactions to snow and playing in what limited amount they get. Yes Mom I’ll take pictures and probably video it if we get some snow to play in!

Today I’m completely and utterly exhausted. I have some major Mama Worries and combine that with lack of sleep and I’m a royal mess. Here’s the story.

Samantha swallowed a Quarter on Sunday. She’s breathing, eating and drinking okay, so we did nothing. Shea and many other reassured me that she’ll be fine. With the first real issue down I can live with it but not we are in a holding pattern waiting for the quarter to pass. I don’t do so well in holding patterns when it comes to my kids or anything really.

So I woke up yesterday with my typical nervous stomach and the day went from there. I did manage to eat more food that I had anticipated but still think I’m going on a nervous stomach diet.

Last night I didn’t sleep well, and it wasn’t just worry of Samantha, it started out as worry over Kathleen. She has her yearly check up today, and she’s been complaining about her ears. Now I don’t know if they really hurt or if it’s an excuse to stay home from school or not to go to bed, but either case the doctor is going to say there is more than likely fluid still in her ears. And I know it’s going to look like I’m a bad Mom, but the thing is. It took them a month to get me a number so I can take out a loan. And it took me another month to have extra money to make this appointment. But what worries me most is that even if she gets fluid who’s to say when they fall out we have figured out why she has so many ear infections in the beginning. It’s probably allergy, but she’s been on allergy medicine since she last saw the ENT almost everyday (which was Dec 9th). So almost two months of childrens Zyrtec and Nasonex. With no help to the ears, does this mean we have to do something else we can’t afford other than tubes. I mean sure we treat the symptoms but what’s the cause she’s not that sick in my opinion.

But then Samantha woke up at 1:30a ish crying. She said something bit her, and was crying about a lost toy. I asked her where it hurt she pointed to her butt. Then I asked again a few miniutes later and she pointed at her head. I think she was woke by a nightmare and she was being overly clingy. There is no way I could sleep in her room and I couldn’t leave her and I was already beyond tired from worry over Kathleen. I now piled worry over Sammi on top of that. So I did the only thing I could do I brought her into the bedroom with me. I laid her down and felt her tummy. I thought it was hard, but it was probably because she was coughing or something cause Shea felt it and thought she was okay. He asked her if it hurt here and she said yes. He rubbed her head and asked that, and she said yes. Same with the legs and feet. She has a habit of just saying yes or no to whatever we ask no matter what her real answer is unless it’s something she really wants. So we went to sleep.

Kathleen woke up alone and so she came to sleep on our floor but I still got very little sleep as Sammi couldn’t get comfortable. She tossed and turned for about an hour and a half. Around 3:30ish I nodded on and off until 4a. After Shea left for work I got a few hours of sleep until 6:30a when my first alarm went off. I tried to doze from there but I kept waking up ever few mins in a jolt of panic.

I am a worried mess and I know I shouldn’t be, we are doing the best we can but that doesn’t mean I don’t worry any less.

Kathleen’s birthday party was today. We had two kids from school and the Uncle’s and Aunt’s and cousins and of course Mam and PawPaw. It was a nice get together for Kathleen she got to play with two of her friends from school and the little boy that came was even very friendly with the girls.

The girls got the beginner skates and Kathleen did really great on them. Samantha usually went with someone but she’d let go of their hand once and a while. The other two started out with normal skates and they didn’t do so well but their parents went to get them some beginner skates and they did great after that.

Kathleen said her classic “Oh My Gosh” when she opened a lot of her toys. She loved things she got.

It wasn’t until the limbo that I fell. Against my better judgment I went with Kathleen and in my attempt to go under I fell. Yay me! I didn’t go under again I’d had enough limbo lol. After our last round through I was talking with Kathleen and trying to do too many things at once and I fell. I mean I fell. Right smack on my hind end and my wrist of course you always land on the palm of your hand and jam your wrist. My palm is bruised and my butt is sore. But it was fun. Everyone had a good time. I am glad that she had a few friends show up.