Two days have passed since my last feeling of stepping down as Warder DL occurred. And my feelings really haven't changed.
There people I've talked to that say they are 100% behind me, and others who say it's your decision but don't do it. I'm glad people give their honest opinions on the matter.
Putting the staff issues aside, there are still two very strong reasons why I feel I should step down.
1. When Kathleen gets here I'm not sure I'm going to want to deal with all the responsiblity of taking care of the Warders when I have a new baby to take care of.
2. I don't beleive the division thinks I've done a very good job at fixing the problems. And after a year the Warders still aren't out of that rut they were in. It's still training focused, rather advancement focused and membership has dropped considerably. If the volitalty on the staff is any concensus on how the division feels about specific changes then I'm not sure I'm the right person for the job. Old Warder ways are engraved in me too deep. Almost seven years of the same traditions, and it's hard to break old habits.
It's sad when I would rather work behind the scenes at SG than work with the Warders. Alot of that has to do with the fact that SG needs help where as the Warders don't. They can run for months with out solid visible leadership. And I'm sure that it will continue that way long after I've gone from DM completely. I'm sure that day will come, maybe not for a long while, but I'm sure it will come.
I'm still giving this considerable thought. My mind isn't completely made up yet.