While I was in the hospital I was dreading coming home to Kathleen and Samantha, Diamond and Shea and me, all living together happily in some semblance of normalacy. I was terrified I was going to have a break down. Yesterday went okay, we had a few rough spots.
Last night was hard. Not for any particular reason. I just had a concern with my own health and that kept me awake and worried on top of having to wake up for both Kathleen and Samantha. But I made it through the night okay, and I'm fine this morning after talking to my doctor's nurse.
But today went rather well considering. We had wanted to go out to Walmart and get a few more things we needed, but Samantha really shouldn't be out in public just yet so we decided not to go. I may have to go sooner than she can go out though, we are having bottle nipple problems. The two different kinds I have available for Samantha aren't working well. So I had to go back to the prepackaged ones that come with the ones we got from the hosiptal that are disposable. I don't have many of them left so I'll have to figure something out before then. She's having to work to hard and isn't getting enough to eat I don't think. We'll figure something out.
Kathleen has been real good with Samantha today. Yesterday she wanted Mommy while I was feeding her sister. Today she climbed into my lap and has tried to help feed Samantha and petted her and gave her kisses. It's really sweet if hard to handle, but I'm doing it on my own so that's a good sign, Kathleen is being gentle, so that's good. Diamond is still not sure of Samantha, she's still freaking out when the baby cries. But then Kathleen also lets me know the baby is crying too.
Shea's been gaming most of the day so it's almost like I'm home alone, but not. It helps get into a feeling of what it'll be like. I don't look forward to the day I have them all alone.
The strike is still going on and we have to figure out what to do insurance wise. This is not going to be good. I really wish Shea would take care of it, but instead he's relying on me, I don't know why. On Monday I hope to ask him to take care of it, since he won't do the easy thing and just COBRA it. I know it's expensive but I know the coverage and it works. We really need this strike to be over soon.